A poem; "What I Mean"

What I mean when I say

"I hate you" is that

actually, I love you.

What I mean is

you've found a way to

get past my walls

& that in & of itself

is a sign from

Spirit.

What I mean is,

how can I feel like this?

Because

you feel like safe &

safe means

run or

safe means grab your

favorite spoon & stir

that shit up.

What I mean is

I need you

What I mean is

I'll probably fuck this up.

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II.

What I mean when I say

"I need you" is that

actually I'm thirsty-

mouth watering for you,

among other things.

What I mean is that I'm

hungry

for you.

What I mean is come

now

& make every

beautiful part of me yours,

Because

the magnets under my skin

are pulling for you.

Do yours pull for me?

What I mean is

I can't wait any longer-

What I mean is

I need your commitment,

and your trust,

and your future.

What I mean is make

yourself free to me &

let's make memories.

What I mean is

I'm ready.

Q